things are not improving ... i'm afraid it wouldn't

i jus ended a phone conversation with my friend ... ouch =(
my voice hurts =( y?!

Bad voice day.
I didn't do anything much, nor did I talk a lot . But ... suddenly its more painful than usual when i speak.

What must I do to be over with this whole episode. Will it ever pass me?
This issue has been bugging me non-stop ... everyday ... for a year already. Doesnt sound long ... but to me, seems like ages.
I still remember when I first strained my voice ... I thought that it would heal quickly. Everyone thought so too ... "Its christmas time, let's go caroling!" but I strained my voice, cant sing ... "3months and still not ok yet? have you seen a doctor?" yes, of course. "6months and still bad?" yea. "Drink more pi pa gao and honey". That wouldn't help, cos it's not a sore throat, neither is it a dry throat, nor is there phlegm ... one year and its christmas again ... "come sing" I wish I could.

However, I still love singing and ktv ... I would still go if it seems fun. Because of that, think people stare at me in disbelief when i say "my voice is strained " ... but the next min when someone asks "who wants to go ktv?", I say "me!". I wonder if they think i'm spouting rubbish about strains and pain. I mean, it really isn't easy singing with this condition.
oh well, I have developed a love-hate relationship with ktv.

Anyhow, I still wish time could flow backwards ... hoping against hope things will be okay soon ... hope it aint like what some people would say ... Fathope

I heard a choir piece on FM92.4 just now on my way home. The style of the song was very much like Water Night's. It reminded me of the enjoyable times I had singing in the choir before. This piece, which was beautifully sang (by some choir), brought me back to the times we practiced conscientiously for Water Night. I simply love Water Night. It is a piece that needs each and every member's heart & effort to pull off the song beautifully ... to blend, to crescendo and decrescendo, to sound dreamy, watery, fierce (like Ronde ... so fun) etc. So many things to take note of ... but we gradually internalised everything to bring out the best sound we could for the song ...

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voice

How long more must i wait? When will be the day that my voice becomes what it was last time. Will it even come? Why is it i still cant sing like before? The strain has become better but it is still affects my singing and i cant let my voice out freely. I (so)long for the day i can sing my heart out ...

Hey the weekend is here again ....
I just read an announcement from my programming lecturer to us students. He was encouraging those students, who did not submit Lab1, to rememeber to practice writing programs and to start doing their Labs although it does not contribute to the final assessment ... About 25% of the students did not submit their Lab1.

Yep indeed, practice is very important for programming. Although i did submit my Lab1 and 2, seems that i'm not that good a student yet. I went for tutorial this afternoon empty handed ... felt so guilty throughout the lesson. My tutorial classmates were presenting their answers and there were people pointing out their mistakes, suggesting modifications and even better solutions ... Me? i merely sat quietly at my desk, briefly trying out a few questions. The other half of the time i was lost.

Something must change !!